She Likes Big Words

temporary

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 05:50:28 GMT

everything feels so temporary. promises are only organized words much like anything else, and the only thing you get for sure is sleep.. eventually. unless you're me, then even thats not for sure...heh

renting an apartment is nothing more than a prolonged legally binding hotel stay minus the hospitality. here you have to change your own sheets and replace your own soap. but its still temporary and not yours.

I wish I could own a house... soon I will. it sounds totally gay but thats one of my biggest goals in life. I dont want to grow old and die a tenant. literally or figuratively.

yesterday

Thu, 06 Mar 2008 16:31:00 GMT

someone told me exactly what i needed to hear.

shells + cheese

Mon, 25 Feb 2008 04:15:56 GMT

today is one of those gray days.

last night went out to the sunrise , good times more incriminating photos to look back on and love.
if i could marry that bar, i probably would

today me and tox are laying low and doing coupley things. we just got back from Acme.. now I'm cooking us some awesome velveta shells and cheese because its god.

my head is itchy

hey kid thats way too many days to be awake

Wed, 13 Feb 2008 01:09:36 GMT

my brain is shutting down lol

my body went to sleep two days ago.

last chance left to dance

Mon, 11 Feb 2008 04:05:03 GMT

People wonder why I'm so "self-involved" or "up in my own head". I like it there. I dont know what I would do without an outlet. I think I want to hit up the store and get some munchies, then get back to work before I lose my drive for the night. Got some new vst's yesterday that I've been dying to play with.

xoxo

now you know, this is what it feels like

Fri, 08 Feb 2008 06:20:20 GMT

Right now.... its 105am. I dont see sleep coming anytime in the near future.

I have so much on my mind right now. Things that I can't really talk about. Not because theyre weird or personal, actually its the complete opposite. I just don't feel like explaining myself.
On a similar note... I'm disappointed. I put faith into too many things and too many people in the past...I dont know... 22 years.
When does that change?
When is the world around me going to start evolving with me?
Whatever, thats my impending-doom-streak talking, not me.

I'm also annoyed because my back fucking hurts. I cant sit in the same position for longer than 10 minutes at a time.

I know I'm not going to sleep tonight and KNOWING that makes it suck even more.
maybe I should get sleeping pills. or maybe I cant swallow pills bc my stomach was manufactured in hell

sick

Sun, 03 Feb 2008 07:58:42 GMT

It doesn't take a genius to figure out that 2007 was hands down the year of the beast. We've all been a little let down
Thankfully 08 is looking up. right now I'm sick as hell , but itll pass. and when it does... awesome will return.

I promise to keep up with this one

xoxo
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